My Birth Story

This has been a long time coming but now that we are reaching a point where Chloe is no longer my baby (fuck, I have a two-year old!?!) I think it is finally time to document her birth before it washes away from my memory along with my credit card pin and the ability to... Continue Reading →

Fuck you mum guilt!

Today was probably the toughest parenting moment I have had in the 653 days since becoming a mother. I know I have said this before and I will no doubt say it several times again over my lifetime, but today almost broke me. No, actually - it did break me. To give a quick (ish) summary... Continue Reading →

Anti depressants saved my marriage

My husband and I have been together since we were quite young, we have lived together since we were 16 and essentially we grew up (in the sense we matured) together. But if you ever met the two of us separately you probably wouldn't pick us as a couple, we are polar opposites. But opposites... Continue Reading →

5 things I miss about life before child

I don't think any parent would disagree that becoming a child rearer changes everything about your life - your body, your relationships, your finances, your sanity. It completely tips your world upside down and shakes it around like a crazy life washing machine. It is the most incredible yet equally terrifying thing you could experience... Continue Reading →

But what is a “good mother”?

Fail...a word I hear a lot among quite a few of the mothers I know. I know I have used it plenty of times myself (shame on me) yet I'm always the first to jump to their defense and tell my fellow mama's that they aren't failing. I usually hear it in the context of "I have... Continue Reading →

I thought about hurting my baby 

Disclaimer; I was medicated early on for my PND and have seen psychologists and have received professional support. I think it is important to recognise when your thoughts aren't normal or that you're really not coping and seek support, for the wellbeing of yourself and your family. There are many amazing organisations out there such... Continue Reading →

They were right, it does get easier. 

Well there's something I never thought I'd ever say, this parenting business really is getting easier. Now don't get me wrong, I still question everything and there are still days you'll find me curled up under the computer desk rocking back and forth whilst ferociously writing an adoption ad with a wine bottle firmly in... Continue Reading →

Am I ready?

An old friend told me that when Chloe is around 18 months the thought of another one won't seem so crazy. Recently I've found myself welcoming the thought of being pregnant again, I had such a lovely pregnancy and the thought of growing another human excites me a little. Then of course my toddler throws something at me... Continue Reading →

Who am I? 

I feel like all new parents go through a period where we lose our identity in the blur of having a newborn and trying to find our feet living our lives with a new tiny human. I don't doubt that for some it can take a while to "find yourself" again once you get into... Continue Reading →

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